Tuesday, August 2, 2022

This May Be My Last Post

 After losing 15 years worth of content on my Flickr page, due to an unforgivable act of spite, I also feel very little motivation to blog or keep up with this blog. I will keep paying for it, after all, it's all I have left of the 12 years of blogging images since my Flickr was destroyed. But I likely will not be updating. All images will just be on Flickr, all new ones, that is. I will become a Flickr blogger only.

So I will use this blog for what it's purpose is, to share my images and my thoughts.

The last month has been a rocky one and I suspect, no ... I am confident that things will worsen before they get better. I cannot elaborate too much due to critical reasons, but I will state that a former friend of mine and myself believe neither of us are wrong in our actions of late. I am single in both worlds, iRL and iSL and there I can do what I want, talk to whomever I want, and see whomever I want. With these freedoms, I still choose not to partake in all activities that single and unattached people do. I am sure you have an idea what I mean when I say that. I choose this lifestyle because somethings that are important to some are not important to me. I sometimes question whether I am A Sexual. I do not yearn for relations, I do not need it, and I hardly want it. But then other times, I feel the desire to, even if I don't have a suitable partner to engage in such things with. The desire is fleeting and never long-term. However, I am a fun and funny and friendly person and people are drawn to me for whatever reason it is that they are and I am always open to new friendships and continuing old ones. However, people tend to make it pretty apparent that they may want a different type of friendship than what I am willing to provide and that's when things become complicated. Being the person I am who hates rejection, I also hate to reject people. So I move cautiously and slowly until the time is right, in hopes to lessen the blow of rejection. People's feelings matter to me. It has to be on my timeline, and no one else's. And because I move to my own time and not someone else's, this is the beginning of the end of a friendship. With things out in the open, a discussion could have taken place. That's the healthy way. However, my friend chose war. Was it a healthy friendship? By no means. The toxicity was strong, yet we allowed it because we cared. The constant toxicity ... I let it happen. I let myself be last. I let myself spend money, I let myself be lonely, I let myself tolerate things no one sane woman would tolerate. Because I cared. God, if I could, I would write a list. But I cannot, I must remain vague and cryptic so this post doesn't blow up in my face. 

I wish to be strong, and I wish to see this whole fiasco, this loss and the grief, I wish to see it to the end so I can resume my life of solitude. I've been single since 2012 and I have managed to get by on my own and I need to relearn how to do that. The weakness in me misses having the companionship this former friend could offer me part time. The weakness in me is willing to accept his part-time companionship. Part of me misses having a lap to sit on, or a warm body to cuddle with, or someone to watch movies with. But the logical part knows that all of that stuff cannot be worth the toxicity that the pair of us cause when together, knows that it's only part time, and I'll remain in last place, and competing with others. My former friend will be satisfied because he gets what he wants, but I will be left unfilled and I won't get what I want which is to simply receive back what I give. No matter how much I want to run back, I need to remind myself that they're friendship has too many strings attached.

But even with that being fact, the feelings and love haven't died. They will. But, at present have not.     Time, my friend and my enemy. Time will see me to the end of this, regardless the outcome, regardless of the war we now fight, regardless of the battery and the bruising and the shells that may remain. Time will see it though and I will regain my self respect and my dignity and I hope they are able to be happy with the people they put first. I wish them all the best. 


Thanks Blogger for hosting my images for so many years. 

Thanks to anyone who has read this blog in the last decade.

You can find me on Flickr until I move on from there.

Take care for now. 

Monday, July 18, 2022

Heart's A Mess

Hi all. I have been away for a couple weeks. 

I've had a lot going on.

I have been accused of doing things I wasn't doing and have no real opportunity to defend myself or my reputation.

I'm experiencing vitriol unlike anything I've seen for years.

It's taking it's toll on me and I am learning how to be alone again.

Anyway, I just want to add that even through all of this, even though an attempt to take me away from you all was made, I will care about and always miss my best friend.

Well, check out my half hearted post and ... yeah.

Wednesday, July 6, 2022

Thick Thighs Save Lives

Sooo, yours truly was hired to be the official and only CSR for Velour Beauty!

I am holding out for one more brand *cough - she knows who she is* cough, and then I am CSRing no mas!!

I thank all the brands who gave me a chance and didn't hold my past against me.

I am eternally grateful!

Well, I have a bath to take, a bath bomb to use and a book to read so I am gonna wrap this one up!

Keep reading the details to get today's lewk:

Sunday, July 3, 2022

Round and Round


LL gets on my nerves! 

They keep making me verify my identify!

Like, how many times do I need to send my social security card to them?

Now they been holding onto my money for two weeks!

Ya girl got a car note to pay!

Anyway, my boo Sera just logged in so I am gonna spend some cuddles time with her and let y'all read below to get the details!

Friday, July 1, 2022

Au Revior

Ugh, so I sold my Ls, and I have been waiting to be able to process credit and when I try, I get an error?

I submitted a ticket to LL but it's the stupid weekend. 

So who knows how long I am gonna have to wait. I really needed it sooner.

It's always hit or miss when it comes to cashing out on the SL page, they need to fix that.

Anyway, I managed to get a blog done, so here ya go.

Keep reading to get the details below: 

Monday, June 27, 2022

.XOXO.

OMG, today I had the worst ever tests ran on me! 

They shocked me! Like, my feet!

And stuck like 15 needles in my legs!

The worst! 

So I am barely home now to do my blogging duties and I am working on making a vendor for a new store! 

I am hoping that it will be a continuous relationship, so I am gonna work hard to make it look nice.

Cross your fingers for me! Welp, better get to work!

Keep reading to get the details below:

Sunday, June 19, 2022

Koffee Break


 Man my weekend is over.

I lost Saturday's off and now I have to work on Saturdays.

I intend to not do shit when I report to work tomorrow LOL.

Yeah I'ma BE there but I won't be WORKING. 

Maybe I'll finish True Blood or something, get some reading done, draw some eyebrows for Powder Pack.

Welp, I have some gaming to do, so I gotta go :)

Wednesday, June 15, 2022

Missus Bizness

Okay so apparently, my boo Seraphina reads my blog so I gotta be nicer and less complainy about my haters. 

While haters are rampant, I still get more love and support than a hater ever could give or receive so I'm winning, as per usual. 

Can't keep me down!!

Anyway, I really liked this outfit even tho it doesn't come in Reborn so I had to throw on Legacy for this one. 

Hope you like it too if you wear Legacy! 

Welp, I have a PS5 game calling my name so I am gonna scoot.

Kisses, Sera Bear <3

Friday, June 10, 2022

Ah-MAZE


1: Y'all are messy as hell and love to try to mess things up for people sometimes, I swear.

2: Don't IM me as soon as I log in, that's really inconsiderate. 

3: I have a vendor to do so I am done writing to you right now.

4: Keep trying to mess things up for me, it ain't working.

5: Below are the details:

Tuesday, June 7, 2022

Mean Green


Why can't people be nicer when seeking service and resolutions to their issues?

Y'all so easily forget that it's another human being with feelings behind the keyboard.

Then wonder why people choose not to help your ass.

You gotta try to be nicer, man, I swear.

Anyway, lemme shut up before I start dragging y'all.

Keep reading below to get the details: 

Thursday, June 2, 2022

Deathly Hallowed

Been having fun making videos, it's pretty addictive.

I just need more practice, and I'll be good as I used to be back in the day.

Well, I have like 4 blogs due in 1 day lol, so I'm gonna start the next one now.

Keep reading to get the details!

Monday, May 30, 2022

Howdy, Ma'am


Update: I'm obsessed with Stray Kids.

Update: Customers suck.

Update: I love doing vendors for SL and dislike blogging.

K, bedtime!


Keep reading below to get the details!

Monday, May 23, 2022

The Courtship

 

I really don't have much to say and plus, I have a vendor to do, so ... lucky you, no rambling.

Continue to read to get the details for today's look:

Thursday, May 19, 2022

Purple Nurple


All things have an expiration date.

Friendships, relationships, partnerships, all of that.

Anyway, I had a nice weekend with friends.

I should be going out again tomorrow so I hope I can enjoy myself again.

I better get to bed so that I am well rested for my event tomorrow.

Keep on reading below to get the details for today's look :) :)

Tuesday, May 17, 2022

.Glafira.

Just found out I have to redo a vendor and I gotta work in the morning so I'm not chatting tonight.

Keep reading for the details.

Wednesday, May 11, 2022

.Vanessa.

Hi all. I was supposed to have a productive weekend, but I didn't.

I was supposed to dabble in Marvelous Designer: Didn't.

Was supposed to make like 3 vendors: Didn't.

I needed to do like 3 blogs: Didn't.

I just slept the whole day and now I am suspended from 3 groups in Blogotex.

Well, I better start sending those notecards to get out of suspension ... sigh.

You, however, can keep reading to get the details for today's look!

Friday, May 6, 2022

.Bunnies.


 I have like 2 more blogs to do and I also need to wash my hair and I also wanna play PS5.

So ... no chatting today! Lucky you!

Get the details below!

Wednesday, May 4, 2022

A Blue Day

I don't know what's wrong with me.

I don't want to socialize, with ANYONE. Not even my closest friends.

I wish people would just leave me alone and let me be.

I don't want to talk now. Just read below to get today's look.

Monday, May 2, 2022

.blush.

Yesterday was terrible.

I hope today is better.

I do have to drive an hour across town so I can duck and dodge more shit.

Wish me luck.

Keep reading to get the deets.

Saturday, April 30, 2022

Flower Girl

Today was horrible.

Bad new from work.

Shit flew off a truck and slammed into my car.

I mean, when it rains, it pours.

I want this day to end.

So I am going to bed.

Get the deets below:

Wednesday, April 27, 2022

Skater Gurl

I been singing so loudly, like I am on stage performing for my asshole neighbors, now I feel light headed. 

I wanna lay down. But, I have a vendor first.

So that first, then bed …

So read ahead to get the deets while I crawl into bed.

Monday, April 25, 2022

Grunge Goddess


 My 3rd day off of my three-day weekend ... and I think I only did two blogs.

After this blog, I'm gonna get some snacks and play some Lego Harry Potter.

And I may call out of work tomorrow to enjoy a four-day weekend :)

Welp, go ahead and read below to get the look of today's details!!

Saturday, April 23, 2022

Stayin' Alive


 I have a vendor to make for Kustom9 so I can't ramble much.

Not like anyone reads any of this away.

So do your thing, click below to get the details:

Tuesday, April 19, 2022

Love Stoned



I have been going thru 145 blogger apps for Lueur Beauty and I have already had to reject like 60 or so applications.

Wait, I just checked, EIGHTY applicants that I rejected! I know 80 people so far hate my guts. 

40 or so more are going to hate me too because I am planning on only keeping like 30.

I don't need anyone else to hate my ass!!

Anyway, it's bed time so I am gonna wrap it up!

Get today's look below!

Saturday, April 16, 2022

Garden Party

 Wow, I am really happy that I have become the face of Apple Blossom.

We were going to hire someone else but she kinda went MIA?

Which didn't set well with me so she may be our part time photographer :)

Anyway, I will have to cut back on some sponsors, but that's just life.

Anyway, I will elaborate later, it's late as heck over here.

Click below for the details :) :)

Thursday, April 14, 2022

The Message!

The message is on the cake and in the hand gesture to my haters who keep me relevant.

Thanks for letting me live rent free in your head!

Everyone else, feel free to keep reading below to get the details!!

Monday, April 11, 2022

Sipping Sesh

I doubt anyone reads this ... so I think I'll shut up and just list details LOL.

Keep reading below!

Thursday, April 7, 2022

Late Lilac

Bussin' out these blogs.

I think I have 3 more to do and then I can take a break for a few days.

This one fit an image is for the BIRDS!! I don't know how y'all do it!

I need my two girls in one image!!!

Well, lemme finish this up so I can dress for my next post tomorrow ... oh and hang out with Persey and Elle in world on our new platform.

Read below to get the details :)

Monday, April 4, 2022

.Cattitude.

So I just took on another job as a store manager and CSR.

I am really glad that people are entrusting me to help run their business.

I will be the face of their stores so I better have some act right on Facebook LOL.

No more mess talking!

Anyway, I am sleepy, it was a long week, so check out today's look and the details below:

Saturday, April 2, 2022

Queenz Baby

I wonder if I'll end up on SL Secrets as someone hating about my new role for Apple Blossom?

I don't read that trash anymore but I still do wonder. I mean, I have so many haters still.

Like, I don't really talk much anymore on FB but ya girl still has haters.

Oh well, I just hope the owner doesn't have any regrets about it.

I had to do a lot of uploading yesterday, was like "oh what did I get myself into?" LOL

I'll get better used to it, though. Well, I guess now I'll hush so you can read the details for the look today!

Sunday, March 27, 2022

Churros for One

So, how do you guys like the new style?

Yeah, more blogs, but slightly less work.

Plus it's fun pre-planning all future blogs too! 

I have like three in queue lol.

Anyway it's bed time and I am giving my friend cuddles in world so I need to focus on her and not thing blog anymore!

Yes! I in fact did make time for someone online for a change!! 

LOL, k, night and keep reading to get the deets below!!

Saturday, March 26, 2022

High Fashion

So I think I want to change my blogging style?

I love doing two girls at once because it knocks out more sponsors and it's less photos I need to do ...

but ... I am liking this style because it's quicker to photoshop ONE girl twice, instead of TWO girls, 4 times. 

So I am gonna test this one out and see how I like it.

So get the details for today's look below:

Wednesday, March 16, 2022

Thank Pank

 LOL, not some loser putting me on SL Secrets.

It's been wayyy too long, so thankkk you, I've been dying to see a fan post about something they didn't like that I said all anonymously for a long time.

So thank you, my fan, I love to see it.

Welp, bed time, so here's a post before I turn in.

Psst, keep posting about me, it's sustenance for my ego <3 

Saturday, March 12, 2022

Spring Time Mimosas

Skin Fair is going on strong!

I made like 5 or 6 items for it, and I have some older items there, too.

It's my first real event, and my girl Elle Revoul saved my ass by helping with a nice, custom made booth. 

How many can say they had a custom booth!?

Also I have been learning some meshing in Blender from a class I paid for, so I hope I can make my own booth in the future :)

Welp, it's bed time so I'll wrap this up.

Keep reading to get the details for today's look!

Wednesday, March 9, 2022

Lewk of the Day (Snacks)

 Hey guise.

I had to focus on Skin Fair stuff so I am soooper behind on blogging.

Always the game of Catch Up around these parts.

Oh and I got rejected from two blogger apps. 

So I have also returned more humble.


Well, check out my super rushed blog and I need to get ready for the next!

Saturday, February 26, 2022

Tied Up

Yay! My TV finally arrived!! I am waiting for my friend to come by and mount it.

The man who so called loves me said he can't bear to be without his family this weekend so I found someone who would do it for me.

People should know, what you won't do, someone else will. 

Anyway, the count down begins before I get my new, cool TV mounted!!

Until then, feel free to read the details below:

Saturday, February 19, 2022

Two Blondes, One Glass


Ooooh, I feel so sexy and bitchy, me likey. 
I'm finishing up this blog and anticipating my new PS5 arrival *and* my nee 120Hz 65" TV arriving ... I'll move my older, 55" to my living room and put my living room TV ... in storage until I get my house. I have 5 TVs ... and a 1 bedroom apt ... maybe I have a problem, LOL.
Anyway, gonna go ahead and shut up so you can get the blog deets!

Sunday, February 13, 2022

Owner of a Broken Heart


 So I have like 20 eyebrows half way drawn for Skin Fair '22 ... I just have to find the time to refine them and test them and upload and do the pics and ahhhh, so time consuming and the deadline approaches *cries* ... this week I will do A blog and then focus on MY stuff for this event.

Anyway, it's sooo past my bedtime, I have to work in the morning so yeah, time for sleepies.

Thanks for the continued support and keep reading below to get the details :)

Tuesday, February 8, 2022

Happy Hour II

Whew, wrist still hurts and I have like 34 mins to submit this blog so I'm not gonna rant too much!

Catch me on the next post, hopefully my wrist will feel better <3

Keep reading to get the details:

Friday, February 4, 2022

Beary Hungry


 Well, all good thing come to and end.

I was away from work for two months. 

Yes, the first month was rough with my healing, but I still enjoyed not reporting to the hell on earth that is my job.

I didn't have severe depression or misery or feel trapped.

Well, tomorrow, I report back to work to be used and surrounded to people who are oblivious and uncaring to my sufferings.

Dunno how this will affect my blogging, but I'll leave places that I need to leave, it's okay.

Still actively trying to find a different job.

Anyway, enjoy my last blog where I am happy.

Saturday, January 29, 2022

Puff Pastry

I just took over as blogging manager for Cosmetize, I look forward to boosting the brand's sales and exposure. 

Yes I am compensated but I also genuinely care about helping people and brands out if I can.

I appreciate the trust from the Revoul ladies and I will do my best to do what I can to make it worth their while!

Anyway I am preparing some brows for Skin Fair, so I gotta get done with this blog so I can get to work.

See you all next time!!

Monday, January 24, 2022

.Obligatory.

Welp, I made my first mistake as a blogging manager. 

I blacklisted someone in Blogotex without really looking into what item they took.

They took the blogger introductory pack and left.

This isn't grounds for Blacklisting and you can imagine her dismay.

Unlike a lot of people I have met on this platform who have made mistakes, I owned up to my carelessness and apologized and immediately rectified the issue.

It's taught me to be more careful about reviewing info on blogger profiles on Blogotex.

Anyway, enough about that, go ahead and read below to get the details for today's look :):)

Thursday, January 20, 2022

Heliotrope

 Boom, I met my 3-posts-in-12-hours deadline.

Sorry, but 3 posts a month is just ridiculous.

Anyway, luckily I'm not feeling like blogging is as much of a chore as usual so it's helping me with the obligations. 

Anyway I am looking forward to dressing up for the next image, then I'm gonna go play some Skyrim on my Nintendo Switch.

Okay, keep reading to get the information for today's look!

Friday, January 14, 2022

Russian Roulette

So I should be returning to work on the 17th if HR gets their shit together.

I'm not looking forward to it AT ALL!

I also had an interview today that I thought I was prepared for.

I researched possible questions and wrote out scenarios ... and none of the questions were remotely similar and I was unable to really use any of my answers.

So who knows if I'll get it. It will negatively impact my ego if I don't but also I am fighting for my LIFE to get out of there, too so whether I get the promotion or not, I will still be leaving if an opportunity comes along. 

Well, enuff about my personal life. I'll point you to the haus icon below so you can get the details for today's lewk:

Saturday, January 8, 2022

Past Telle

I have to work in the morning, at my 2nd job, for about 5 hours, my first day back since surgery.

I'll be using that time to prepare for the job interview at my main job got a leadership position.

Wish me luck.

Then somehow I have to produce 2 other blogs for another sponsor in 24 hours - eye roll.

Well, gonna go to bed so I can not be terribly tired tomorrow.

Keep reading to get the deets!!

Tuesday, January 4, 2022

Post Holiday

OMG, my wrist hurts.

I got my wrist surgery and I swore it would not take long to heal and I could relax at home and and blog all day.

My wrist has it's own plans, and it was very excruciating to do this blog but I woke up to 4 suspensions in Blogotex ... 

So here we go. I gotta play catch up as best as I can.

So without further rambling, please check out my blog and I will prepare for the next.